............still Alive!!

Dear Blog,

Nice to see me back? Yes i am still alive...The work pressures havent yet decreased nor the spate of escalations and virulents from my managers!! Still living...

So coming back to update you after 4 months! Sorry for that. Now as far as the motive of this Blog is concerned,i am having cold feet and sore throat as to what to say now...

will try to sleep less and spend some time on this 'forsaken dream'.


~Nits

MBA, Lies and Essays!!

This person comes back again to this Blog, to write another senti story! What i found recently is that writing essay for Bschool admissions is all about lying. No matter what you are and who you are, your essay should be something that gives a great impression that this person is born to get into this school!

I would not get into whether it is justified to do it or not. Who said that you cannot lie? What matters is that its the result that should matter. If you are succeeding, then no body cares you wrote the truth or not. And yes who told you that you should be a satyawadi harishchandra....

Its all about business and free markets and competition. Whatever sells is true! As simple as that. And who said that life is fair. One has to deal with it. If there are 100 copycats and one 'real' thing; if the real thing cannot sell it to the audience despite of being true!! Its your fault, you aren't a right person to get into this business!

The bottomline is - Whatever sells is 'real' and not the otherway round.

Neighbour's envy, Asia's pride

They are trying really hard!!

What could be the hottest selling item in china these days? Electronic gizmos, handsets, video-games? Nope.

Its the english dictionary!! Thats real good competition between the two neighbours. Asia is in, world is out! Catch the full piece here

India rocks the world with Aloo Tikki Burger

Nice news of a different kind making rounds in circles other than IT. I guess more of these will be arriving soon as ever-increasing indian middleclass becomes an awesome-eye-catching proposition for the MNCs of the world.

And yes do note the fact that by 2010, nearly 55% of indian populace will be in the earn-spend-and-make-merry age group of 25-35. Time now to convert the nickname of 'Land of snake-charmers' to the 'land of MNC-charmers'!!

Here is the news item of AAloo-tikki

The EXTRA mile

It has been said and said again and again. But to no avail, this god damn person seems deaf. Man you have enough guidelines, strategies, tips, inspiration, statements of the people who have been there and done that. Enough of it. Enough of Gyan!!

Believe me or not, even i can be a counseller for an MBA preparation, be it GMAT or CAT. Kab tak radio sunte rahoge?? Walk the Path now, what are you waiting for? If it requires to be a personality for getting into ISB, then do it now. Be what you always wanted to be. Till what time will you compromise and keep giving non-sensical excuses for not realising your dreams?

What it takes to be a winner in life, the extra pound of guts to cross the thin line between a hard-working-participant and a winner. Its always have been that extra mile that you never trudged, it always been that extra hour that you missed to put at the last moment....why the question always comes for that extra? Lets finish it this time. Do whatever it takes to grab that extra to reach the destination...to achieve what you always wanted. Why YOU, who has to stand in the crowd and clap for the winners? Why you stand there perspiring thinking in awe, that what this guy or gal is having in him/her that you lack?

The bottomline is that you are the owner of your own dream! If you cant arrange enough resources to make it happen. Then be damned! Dont crib afterwards. Its you and only you who is responsible for this. If you dont have enough to show off in your essays, then find out what can be achieved in next 4 months, which can help you stand out of the crowd. If you cant manage that then get a score of 750+, so that people wouldnt ask much of our extra-s. Its up to you HOW YOU MAKE THAT HAPPEN!!

So now, forget about the damn job of coding you have been doing for last 3 yrs and will keep on doing if dont get it right this time. Get that EXTRA into your life. THAT EXTRA that will help you stand on the podium wearing that gold medal or that EXTRA that will help you discuss your success story rather than the midnight oil you burnt only to find that this way doesnt work...get that EXTRA which will help you throw that black hat into the sky when graduating out of the most hallowed B-school in India.

Dont be a commodity....be a brand. Find ways to create a brand of yours!! Its time now you become a person driven with a killer instinct OR forget it for this lifetime!!

written in full sobriety,
~Nits

Have it........Habits

Feeling guilty these days!

The dream seems to be at the back burner these days. 'Busy at work' should not be the excuse!
Read a quote today -
"Motivation gets you started, Habit is the one that gets you going!"

I realised, how true this is with me. I tend to start things with great motivation. But after a solid start i cant build upon, unlike Mr Dravid! Have to do something about. The biggest challenge in life for me ha always been to convert those 30s into 100s! To pick up good things around you is OK, but to convert them into life-long habit is what differentiates the one who are in and one who arent!

...hmmm! Will surely do something about it soon. Wait for my next post..that too soon!

~Nits

GMAT Official Score knocked my door!

So its official news that i have scored 680 on GMAT with 31 in verbal and 50 in Quants. Overall 90 percentile marks. Well thats all i knew already, but the one i didnt know was my AWA score.

I was thinking that i am a genuine writer, who is real good at least at writing. But the myth was shattered today as the AWA stands at 4.5/6 in front of me. I thought at least 5 should be there, but i guess writing limmericks and poems is no where associated with writing an analysis of an argument. I felt a word called Dejavu in my stomach!

The same kind of feeling happened to me when i was in first year of my graduation. There was a horrible subject called Engineering drawing(ED). Since i was good at sketching during my school days, i thought at least i need not worry about ED as my fingures are already at ease with curves and lines. But guess what there also i felt like a moron...........i passed on the border line ;)

Thats it! The score-card also said that my scores will be sent to -
ISB, Hyd
IIM-A
IIM-B
IIM-C
NUS, Singapore.

Well that last one is the least preffered. I really feel left out here in US and i just want to be in india as soon as possible! I am coming ISB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....andi know it will be difficult!

~Nits

G-DAY is finally over!

.........huffffffffffffffff...The GMAT is finally over! Though not in the desired fashion but its finally over. On the GDAY i started the day in an unusual saturday as i wished myself a very good morning! ( As generally satudays are good afternoons for me!!) Had a good breakfast and some worship, and yes got a call too from my office. But solved the matter soon and started from my home at correct time.

The roads here in US are simply kinda impeccable in contrast with the roads(?) in M.P. India. Even a driver like me can drive at 80 miles/hr :). Reached the test centre coolly and did all the formalities. Then i sat on the 4hr chair and i started confidently............

The first hour was fun as i wrote a real nice argument analysis followed by another good issue analysis. I think i would get real good score at AWA.
Then i took a break and boy the confidence was simply exuding from within! I started with quants and finished in comfortable zone, given the trend of consistent 50s i had been scoring in the mocks.
Then came the last round where i knew i am not a good player. Played cautiously but had to finish the section in hurry as i ran out of time. In order to evade the penalty skipped last two or three questions with pure guesses. And here came the end. I knew that the performance is not exceptional. But whether i have crossed the iSB average of 690 was the question i was asking.

And finally it popped up in front of me. It was 680 on the screen, missed the 690 mark by 10 pts. Maths; as consistent as ever....dot 50. But the verbal played the devil; scored 31 in verbal. So its over i told myself!

Came back home though after two arduous hours of confused driving as i was lost on my way back home. Boy i drove all over, left, right and center; but wasnt able to get it correct. Finally found the way home thanks to an old lady who helped me. Those two hours were more draining than the 4 hrs i spent at the testing centre!!
Well its time now to relax a little bit! read a bit, sing a bit and code some bytes!! Till then bye bye.

Who Am I?? - II

.......A long pause. And then the outer facade broke loose and told the inner voice about all the vagaries of nature ( The software major and its Visa policies and the long maintainability of the systems it deployed at clients' sites....), and the societieal pressures to go to US!!. But the major reason still remained hidden in the graveard of my much-cherished dreams to....He tried his best to not to opened the pandora's box...but with whom he was juggling?? The inner voice, which knew about the deepest inners of my heart, soul and mind!

The question came as a bolt from the blue! "What about the much-torn-yet-not-extinct dream of yours?". And I played again the much old trick.....with a too naive face " Which one? I dont know what you are talking about?"

HAHAHAHA......a huge laughter broke the silence. "Good try! But i am too old for that....what about CAT and IIMS and an MBA??". Its difficult to stand such a too-dare-bare question. It creates the picture of a person who read The Alchemist but still couldnt follow his personal legend because......hid did a compromise with his dream! Compromise to go to US thanks to the fact diary he had...2 serious attempts at CAT with no outcome; filling up of the CAT form for last 5 years like a family tradition and yes parental pressure!

And the verdict was that i couldnt play a Howard Roark denying all those onsite offers......to appear in yet another CAT....But he wasnt the much revered character of Ayn Rand's Fountainhead........He was a mere mortal....Nitin!!

Enough scracthing of yesteryears' broken(s)!Lets move on.........!Will write a positive one on 19*th March i guess!

*Morpheous to Neo - There is a difference in knowing the path and .............walking the path!! 19th march is first-n-last shot at GMAT!! Hmmmmmmmmmm
~Nits

Who am I?

I woke up hurriedly all soaked in pirspiration on a chilling snowy afternoon @ 12:45 PM today. I was breathing heavily and was kind of brain-washed after the kind of interrogation i have gone through.......where my now-founded-longly-missing soul asked myself the set of quintessential questions - Who Am I? Where am I? What am i Doing? And why?

So many questions!with only a 386 processor in my brain, i thought i am definitely getting an hemorrhage. But then sanity prevailed later when i decided to answer the nail-biting questions - one by one. I took a deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath(so deep!!) and thought of the first one!

Who am I?
There wasnt any sound! For the first time in life i thought if there could have been a sound amplifier inside...and suddenly i heard

......uooonkhkh...umphfff...hmmmm...
as if somebody was nearly choked to death. Then after few moments it said.

..its me...Nitin!

Who? then came the cross question - Which One?

the voice told
...the one who used to sketch portraits!read books! write poems! was mad about advertising!hated coding and loved writing long mails!!

then came the hitherto-forgotten smile...ok i see...so you are back! Good to hear you nits!!

Where am I? asked the still coughing soul all soaked in viscous-fluid(as in matrix neo was inside one)...and was really a hell-raiser!

In US of America! some seven oceans far away from the beloved land of hitherto sanke charmers~turned-into-IT programmers!

Whhhhh......what are you saying! I love my india...i love my friends there, near and dear ones, my food, my festivals, my faith.....what the hell i am doing here...??

*because of time constraints....this post will be continued soon.....!!
~Nits

GABBAR.......i have started!!

This is going to be the first BLOG of creativenits.........!!Hmmm let me see from where i can start.START..i guess i read something about start somewhere...probably at somebody's blog.

Situation Tasks Actions Results Takeaways is what ppl in MBA lingo take it...u see how confusing do they make such small thing like start.

So to start with the SITUATION at hand. Its 2:11 AM, being swayed away from ppl's blogs; the leftovers of my smothered creativity told me, " What are you doing man? Living!! What r you up to? the same old mundane techie programs, that you run and monitor everyday as if oneday it will display a message " job ran successfully - you are relieved of this technical pain!" and you will be free?" You have to do something to get out of here, to reach your dreams!! Understand the situation nits....u arent looking creative anymore!

(S down, well done) Thinks...

Next is the TASK. Task at hand is to start a blog where i will keep venting off my feelings...about the bad snowfall..about the same f***ing mainframe screen...Also to keep a log of the (pro)gress\(con)gress that i did on my way out of this techie...no no lemme write in full 'Insanely indifferent, integeristic inferno of infotechism'job, to get into a Bschool back in swades( only ISB, be it!).....Thus this blog will create kinda pressure to achieve my dreams.

(T down, they are reading it for the first and last time..) Hmmm

ACTION. Well that means writing blog till u reach the R; result of my pledge against the deadlock of mainframes.....I can promise lots of action here..good thingie is that i have just watched SHOLAY...so the action has started..in veeruish tone 'Gabbar! Mein aa raha hoon....'

(A down but not under, but nobody is reading...leave the RT) zzzzzzzzz

RESULT - awaited...in march-06, i guess as far as ISB is concerned.
(R) ( "Not yet - says trinity in Matrix-1")

TAKEAWAYS - admission in ISB or another year of yaarana with those JCLs, Cobol Programs, Linkcards, controlcards, and their whole witchcraft!

'Faisla hai aapka; aakhir sar hai apka'

(T) (dont know what ppl will say after reading this! "God is watching you")

HUHHHHHHHH Done.
~Nits

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