Feeling guilty these days!
The dream seems to be at the back burner these days. 'Busy at work' should not be the excuse!
Read a quote today -
"Motivation gets you started, Habit is the one that gets you going!"
I realised, how true this is with me. I tend to start things with great motivation. But after a solid start i cant build upon, unlike Mr Dravid! Have to do something about. The biggest challenge in life for me ha always been to convert those 30s into 100s! To pick up good things around you is OK, but to convert them into life-long habit is what differentiates the one who are in and one who arent!
...hmmm! Will surely do something about it soon. Wait for my next post..that too soon!
~Nits
Friday, April 29, 2005
Sunday, April 03, 2005
GMAT Official Score knocked my door!
So its official news that i have scored 680 on GMAT with 31 in verbal and 50 in Quants. Overall 90 percentile marks. Well thats all i knew already, but the one i didnt know was my AWA score.
I was thinking that i am a genuine writer, who is real good at least at writing. But the myth was shattered today as the AWA stands at 4.5/6 in front of me. I thought at least 5 should be there, but i guess writing limmericks and poems is no where associated with writing an analysis of an argument. I felt a word called Dejavu in my stomach!
The same kind of feeling happened to me when i was in first year of my graduation. There was a horrible subject called Engineering drawing(ED). Since i was good at sketching during my school days, i thought at least i need not worry about ED as my fingures are already at ease with curves and lines. But guess what there also i felt like a moron...........i passed on the border line ;)
Thats it! The score-card also said that my scores will be sent to -
ISB, Hyd
IIM-A
IIM-B
IIM-C
NUS, Singapore.
Well that last one is the least preffered. I really feel left out here in US and i just want to be in india as soon as possible! I am coming ISB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....andi know it will be difficult!
~Nits
I was thinking that i am a genuine writer, who is real good at least at writing. But the myth was shattered today as the AWA stands at 4.5/6 in front of me. I thought at least 5 should be there, but i guess writing limmericks and poems is no where associated with writing an analysis of an argument. I felt a word called Dejavu in my stomach!
The same kind of feeling happened to me when i was in first year of my graduation. There was a horrible subject called Engineering drawing(ED). Since i was good at sketching during my school days, i thought at least i need not worry about ED as my fingures are already at ease with curves and lines. But guess what there also i felt like a moron...........i passed on the border line ;)
Thats it! The score-card also said that my scores will be sent to -
ISB, Hyd
IIM-A
IIM-B
IIM-C
NUS, Singapore.
Well that last one is the least preffered. I really feel left out here in US and i just want to be in india as soon as possible! I am coming ISB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....andi know it will be difficult!
~Nits
Sunday, March 20, 2005
G-DAY is finally over!
.........huffffffffffffffff...The GMAT is finally over! Though not in the desired fashion but its finally over. On the GDAY i started the day in an unusual saturday as i wished myself a very good morning! ( As generally satudays are good afternoons for me!!) Had a good breakfast and some worship, and yes got a call too from my office. But solved the matter soon and started from my home at correct time.
The roads here in US are simply kinda impeccable in contrast with the roads(?) in M.P. India. Even a driver like me can drive at 80 miles/hr :). Reached the test centre coolly and did all the formalities. Then i sat on the 4hr chair and i started confidently............
The first hour was fun as i wrote a real nice argument analysis followed by another good issue analysis. I think i would get real good score at AWA.
Then i took a break and boy the confidence was simply exuding from within! I started with quants and finished in comfortable zone, given the trend of consistent 50s i had been scoring in the mocks.
Then came the last round where i knew i am not a good player. Played cautiously but had to finish the section in hurry as i ran out of time. In order to evade the penalty skipped last two or three questions with pure guesses. And here came the end. I knew that the performance is not exceptional. But whether i have crossed the iSB average of 690 was the question i was asking.
And finally it popped up in front of me. It was 680 on the screen, missed the 690 mark by 10 pts. Maths; as consistent as ever....dot 50. But the verbal played the devil; scored 31 in verbal. So its over i told myself!
Came back home though after two arduous hours of confused driving as i was lost on my way back home. Boy i drove all over, left, right and center; but wasnt able to get it correct. Finally found the way home thanks to an old lady who helped me. Those two hours were more draining than the 4 hrs i spent at the testing centre!!
Well its time now to relax a little bit! read a bit, sing a bit and code some bytes!! Till then bye bye.
The roads here in US are simply kinda impeccable in contrast with the roads(?) in M.P. India. Even a driver like me can drive at 80 miles/hr :). Reached the test centre coolly and did all the formalities. Then i sat on the 4hr chair and i started confidently............
The first hour was fun as i wrote a real nice argument analysis followed by another good issue analysis. I think i would get real good score at AWA.
Then i took a break and boy the confidence was simply exuding from within! I started with quants and finished in comfortable zone, given the trend of consistent 50s i had been scoring in the mocks.
Then came the last round where i knew i am not a good player. Played cautiously but had to finish the section in hurry as i ran out of time. In order to evade the penalty skipped last two or three questions with pure guesses. And here came the end. I knew that the performance is not exceptional. But whether i have crossed the iSB average of 690 was the question i was asking.
And finally it popped up in front of me. It was 680 on the screen, missed the 690 mark by 10 pts. Maths; as consistent as ever....dot 50. But the verbal played the devil; scored 31 in verbal. So its over i told myself!
Came back home though after two arduous hours of confused driving as i was lost on my way back home. Boy i drove all over, left, right and center; but wasnt able to get it correct. Finally found the way home thanks to an old lady who helped me. Those two hours were more draining than the 4 hrs i spent at the testing centre!!
Well its time now to relax a little bit! read a bit, sing a bit and code some bytes!! Till then bye bye.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Who Am I?? - II
.......A long pause. And then the outer facade broke loose and told the inner voice about all the vagaries of nature ( The software major and its Visa policies and the long maintainability of the systems it deployed at clients' sites....), and the societieal pressures to go to US!!. But the major reason still remained hidden in the graveard of my much-cherished dreams to....He tried his best to not to opened the pandora's box...but with whom he was juggling?? The inner voice, which knew about the deepest inners of my heart, soul and mind!
The question came as a bolt from the blue! "What about the much-torn-yet-not-extinct dream of yours?". And I played again the much old trick.....with a too naive face " Which one? I dont know what you are talking about?"
HAHAHAHA......a huge laughter broke the silence. "Good try! But i am too old for that....what about CAT and IIMS and an MBA??". Its difficult to stand such a too-dare-bare question. It creates the picture of a person who read The Alchemist but still couldnt follow his personal legend because......hid did a compromise with his dream! Compromise to go to US thanks to the fact diary he had...2 serious attempts at CAT with no outcome; filling up of the CAT form for last 5 years like a family tradition and yes parental pressure!
And the verdict was that i couldnt play a Howard Roark denying all those onsite offers......to appear in yet another CAT....But he wasnt the much revered character of Ayn Rand's Fountainhead........He was a mere mortal....Nitin!!
Enough scracthing of yesteryears' broken(s)!Lets move on.........!Will write a positive one on 19*th March i guess!
*Morpheous to Neo - There is a difference in knowing the path and .............walking the path!! 19th march is first-n-last shot at GMAT!! Hmmmmmmmmmm
~Nits
The question came as a bolt from the blue! "What about the much-torn-yet-not-extinct dream of yours?". And I played again the much old trick.....with a too naive face " Which one? I dont know what you are talking about?"
HAHAHAHA......a huge laughter broke the silence. "Good try! But i am too old for that....what about CAT and IIMS and an MBA??". Its difficult to stand such a too-dare-bare question. It creates the picture of a person who read The Alchemist but still couldnt follow his personal legend because......hid did a compromise with his dream! Compromise to go to US thanks to the fact diary he had...2 serious attempts at CAT with no outcome; filling up of the CAT form for last 5 years like a family tradition and yes parental pressure!
And the verdict was that i couldnt play a Howard Roark denying all those onsite offers......to appear in yet another CAT....But he wasnt the much revered character of Ayn Rand's Fountainhead........He was a mere mortal....Nitin!!
Enough scracthing of yesteryears' broken(s)!Lets move on.........!Will write a positive one on 19*th March i guess!
*Morpheous to Neo - There is a difference in knowing the path and .............walking the path!! 19th march is first-n-last shot at GMAT!! Hmmmmmmmmmm
~Nits
Monday, February 07, 2005
Who am I?
I woke up hurriedly all soaked in pirspiration on a chilling snowy afternoon @ 12:45 PM today. I was breathing heavily and was kind of brain-washed after the kind of interrogation i have gone through.......where my now-founded-longly-missing soul asked myself the set of quintessential questions - Who Am I? Where am I? What am i Doing? And why?
So many questions!with only a 386 processor in my brain, i thought i am definitely getting an hemorrhage. But then sanity prevailed later when i decided to answer the nail-biting questions - one by one. I took a deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath(so deep!!) and thought of the first one!
Who am I?
There wasnt any sound! For the first time in life i thought if there could have been a sound amplifier inside...and suddenly i heard
......uooonkhkh...umphfff...hmmmm...
as if somebody was nearly choked to death. Then after few moments it said.
..its me...Nitin!
Who? then came the cross question - Which One?
the voice told
...the one who used to sketch portraits!read books! write poems! was mad about advertising!hated coding and loved writing long mails!!
then came the hitherto-forgotten smile...ok i see...so you are back! Good to hear you nits!!
Where am I? asked the still coughing soul all soaked in viscous-fluid(as in matrix neo was inside one)...and was really a hell-raiser!
In US of America! some seven oceans far away from the beloved land of hitherto sanke charmers~turned-into-IT programmers!
Whhhhh......what are you saying! I love my india...i love my friends there, near and dear ones, my food, my festivals, my faith.....what the hell i am doing here...??
*because of time constraints....this post will be continued soon.....!!
~Nits
So many questions!with only a 386 processor in my brain, i thought i am definitely getting an hemorrhage. But then sanity prevailed later when i decided to answer the nail-biting questions - one by one. I took a deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath(so deep!!) and thought of the first one!
Who am I?
There wasnt any sound! For the first time in life i thought if there could have been a sound amplifier inside...and suddenly i heard
......uooonkhkh...umphfff...hmmmm...
as if somebody was nearly choked to death. Then after few moments it said.
..its me...Nitin!
Who? then came the cross question - Which One?
the voice told
...the one who used to sketch portraits!read books! write poems! was mad about advertising!hated coding and loved writing long mails!!
then came the hitherto-forgotten smile...ok i see...so you are back! Good to hear you nits!!
Where am I? asked the still coughing soul all soaked in viscous-fluid(as in matrix neo was inside one)...and was really a hell-raiser!
In US of America! some seven oceans far away from the beloved land of hitherto sanke charmers~turned-into-IT programmers!
Whhhhh......what are you saying! I love my india...i love my friends there, near and dear ones, my food, my festivals, my faith.....what the hell i am doing here...??
*because of time constraints....this post will be continued soon.....!!
~Nits
Monday, January 17, 2005
GABBAR.......i have started!!
This is going to be the first BLOG of creativenits.........!!Hmmm let me see from where i can start.START..i guess i read something about start somewhere...probably at somebody's blog.
Situation Tasks Actions Results Takeaways is what ppl in MBA lingo take it...u see how confusing do they make such small thing like start.
So to start with the SITUATION at hand. Its 2:11 AM, being swayed away from ppl's blogs; the leftovers of my smothered creativity told me, " What are you doing man? Living!! What r you up to? the same old mundane techie programs, that you run and monitor everyday as if oneday it will display a message " job ran successfully - you are relieved of this technical pain!" and you will be free?" You have to do something to get out of here, to reach your dreams!! Understand the situation nits....u arent looking creative anymore!
(S down, well done) Thinks...
Next is the TASK. Task at hand is to start a blog where i will keep venting off my feelings...about the bad snowfall..about the same f***ing mainframe screen...Also to keep a log of the (pro)gress\(con)gress that i did on my way out of this techie...no no lemme write in full 'Insanely indifferent, integeristic inferno of infotechism'job, to get into a Bschool back in swades( only ISB, be it!).....Thus this blog will create kinda pressure to achieve my dreams.
(T down, they are reading it for the first and last time..) Hmmm
ACTION. Well that means writing blog till u reach the R; result of my pledge against the deadlock of mainframes.....I can promise lots of action here..good thingie is that i have just watched SHOLAY...so the action has started..in veeruish tone 'Gabbar! Mein aa raha hoon....'
(A down but not under, but nobody is reading...leave the RT) zzzzzzzzz
RESULT - awaited...in march-06, i guess as far as ISB is concerned.
(R) ( "Not yet - says trinity in Matrix-1")
TAKEAWAYS - admission in ISB or another year of yaarana with those JCLs, Cobol Programs, Linkcards, controlcards, and their whole witchcraft!
'Faisla hai aapka; aakhir sar hai apka'
(T) (dont know what ppl will say after reading this! "God is watching you")
HUHHHHHHHH Done.
~Nits
loop-starts
for umpteenth times
*Please forgive me*
loop-ends
Situation Tasks Actions Results Takeaways is what ppl in MBA lingo take it...u see how confusing do they make such small thing like start.
So to start with the SITUATION at hand. Its 2:11 AM, being swayed away from ppl's blogs; the leftovers of my smothered creativity told me, " What are you doing man? Living!! What r you up to? the same old mundane techie programs, that you run and monitor everyday as if oneday it will display a message " job ran successfully - you are relieved of this technical pain!" and you will be free?" You have to do something to get out of here, to reach your dreams!! Understand the situation nits....u arent looking creative anymore!
(S down, well done) Thinks...
Next is the TASK. Task at hand is to start a blog where i will keep venting off my feelings...about the bad snowfall..about the same f***ing mainframe screen...Also to keep a log of the (pro)gress\(con)gress that i did on my way out of this techie...no no lemme write in full 'Insanely indifferent, integeristic inferno of infotechism'job, to get into a Bschool back in swades( only ISB, be it!).....Thus this blog will create kinda pressure to achieve my dreams.
(T down, they are reading it for the first and last time..) Hmmm
ACTION. Well that means writing blog till u reach the R; result of my pledge against the deadlock of mainframes.....I can promise lots of action here..good thingie is that i have just watched SHOLAY...so the action has started..in veeruish tone 'Gabbar! Mein aa raha hoon....'
(A down but not under, but nobody is reading...leave the RT) zzzzzzzzz
RESULT - awaited...in march-06, i guess as far as ISB is concerned.
(R) ( "Not yet - says trinity in Matrix-1")
TAKEAWAYS - admission in ISB or another year of yaarana with those JCLs, Cobol Programs, Linkcards, controlcards, and their whole witchcraft!
'Faisla hai aapka; aakhir sar hai apka'
(T) (dont know what ppl will say after reading this! "God is watching you")
HUHHHHHHHH Done.
~Nits
loop-starts
for umpteenth times
*Please forgive me*
loop-ends
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